Friday Photo + Ros Myers Dream

*** Possible Spooks 9 Ros Myers Spoilers ahead! ***

Spooks 9 is powering ahead in such fine form that, like Adam before her, you almost forget that Ros Myers is gone. But whenever I catch a glimpse of my favourite Spook online or while I’m scouring my hard drive looking for images for Spooks Fan Blog posts, I remember; Oh God I miss Ros! And the dream I had the other night might (embarrassingly) reinforce this point.

One morning over a week ago I woke up a little upset, with sad eyes and tears welled up in them. In the dream I’d been crying. Do you ever wake up in a semi-conscious state where the line between reality and your dream world is blurred? In the dream my sister had died, and when I woke in this half dream/half real life state, I was thinking “oh my god my sister has died, my sister!”. As I began to realise full consciousness I suddenly thought “hold on, I don’t have a sister! What the hell was I dreaming about, who was my sister?” Well, my “sister” was Ros Myers. I’d dreamt that Ros Myers, my sister, had died, and I was completely distraught. Upon piecing this picture together, I sat up in my bed with a sense of relief (that my sister had in fact not died because I don’t have one!) and so bemused by my dream grief for Ros that I shook my head and laughed.

So I’ve had a series of dreams recently about funerals, grief and death – what does it all mean? Today I realised that it’s the anniversary of a friend’s passing this month, and I had a phone call to make… to “a sister”. Whether intended or not, thanks for the reminder, Ros.